22 years of life... Wasted.. I realized today, when everybody wished me. Nothing made me feel better, probably I have stopped feeling anything special in me. Making it impossible for anybody to make me feel special on any day. I have lost myself somewhere, somewhere on the road I traveled through years, I picked up a lot but left myself somewhere. This world indeed is a cruel place to live in.. or probably it is my perspective today, the world is as you see it... Yes i think, my eyesight that saw the wonders and beauty of this planet has been blinded.. I am suffering from "beauty-blindness".
On second thoughts, i have nothing to be proud of and to actually look at and be happy.. What did i achieve in these 22 long years? Naught..!!
For the first 20 years, i had Hope, this demon, kept me inflated.. Made me think things that made me feel on the top of the world, but it had to end, the little pinch of reality today deflated me.. I'd no longer cling to the feeble thread of Hope. I'll rather fill my glass with a peg of hopelessness and pessimism, maybe that'll help...!!
Suddenly, the song from the Rajesh Khanna's Blockbuster, Amar Prem is being played in my mind,
"Humne jo, dekha tha suna tha, kya batayein wo kya tha,
Sapna salona tha, Khatm to hona tha, Hua..."
A dream that ended today..
An apt date i think, 9th of August.. A day when thousands were killed in the city of Nagasaki in Japan. Probably, I should not feel happy anymore on my birthday, a day of sadness should remain so... I'd make sure that i do not celebrate this day from now onward.. That'll be my homage to the innocent souls that were ripped apart from their bodies on this black day....!!!!
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So Good bye birthday celebrations....!! For the last time in my life i'd wish myself "Happy Birthday to ME."
On second thoughts, i have nothing to be proud of and to actually look at and be happy.. What did i achieve in these 22 long years? Naught..!!
For the first 20 years, i had Hope, this demon, kept me inflated.. Made me think things that made me feel on the top of the world, but it had to end, the little pinch of reality today deflated me.. I'd no longer cling to the feeble thread of Hope. I'll rather fill my glass with a peg of hopelessness and pessimism, maybe that'll help...!!
Suddenly, the song from the Rajesh Khanna's Blockbuster, Amar Prem is being played in my mind,
"Humne jo, dekha tha suna tha, kya batayein wo kya tha,
Sapna salona tha, Khatm to hona tha, Hua..."
A dream that ended today..
An apt date i think, 9th of August.. A day when thousands were killed in the city of Nagasaki in Japan. Probably, I should not feel happy anymore on my birthday, a day of sadness should remain so... I'd make sure that i do not celebrate this day from now onward.. That'll be my homage to the innocent souls that were ripped apart from their bodies on this black day....!!!!
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So Good bye birthday celebrations....!! For the last time in my life i'd wish myself "Happy Birthday to ME."
