.....hinc illae lacrimae. The Prologue.

Prologue:

It is difficult to keep half formed wishes in your heart. More difficult to keep yourself running after a motive that you know would remain unfulfilled. Hoping against hope. Something that human mind does again and again. Running after a lost cause,... The situation worsens when one refuses to move ahead, and chooses to remind oneself, "I never deserved what i dreamt of, I lost......"

Leo is good looking, is rich, is dangerous. is a defeated lover, a lost son, is hated by his own conscience and maybe a psychopath. He lives to kill and then to live with his guilt. To wake through the nights, horrified by the pain filled voices of the people he murdered. But then to murder again, to punish himself, he knew he deserved pain, he was not worth love.. his parents had left him the girl he loved chose to die rather than love him back....

What will his story be like....???

Things that my life post school taught me

1. Never go out of your way to help some one. There is a good chance that you will we the one left helpless in the end.

2. It is highly important to possess the ability to say a bland "no", else you will not get time to remind yourself that you did not breathe for the last two seconds.

3. Never try to be humble. That is mistaken as stupidity.

4. Never try to correct some one, or tell some one some thing that you know to enrich their knowledge, because if you do so you are acting over smart.

5. Never say the truth. Even if you do you are a liar because every one has a version of the story that saves their neck.

6. Never trust the one looking the most trustworthy. Chances are that it is a very well used camouflage and you actually are the prey.

7. Never do some one a favor. It gives others a chance to people to say, " look how easily i made her do my work. Don't you see i am a genius!!"

8. Do not try to talk to some one with a broad smile. If the person is of the same gender then you are so very trying to use their company, and if of the opposite, then you are either flirting or are genuinely interested in getting into a relationship.

10. If some one cracks a joke on you you are acting so pricey to be furious over such a little thing. But if you do so you are ill mannered enough to be prosecuted.

The Curious Case of Missing Clothes.

"Life is a tragedy for those who can feel but a comedy for those who can think.."
and that exactly is what, all conflict in the world is about, among those who "think" and those who "feel", though none completely belong to, exactly, one of the categories. One would always be a thinker for 'OTHERS' but when it comes to oneself all 'feelings' just come up to the brim... just to clarify what I exactly mean, here's another quote,

" A tragedy is when i cut my finger, and a comedy is when you fall into a gutter and die... ha"

But then the question arises of who is right and who is wrong?? For this is how we judge everything around us. This is what we divide the world into, THE "RIGHTS", and THE "WRONGS"...!!!

Recently, i heard about a death in my locality. One of the tenants in my neighborhood recently committed a suicide ( as they say ) but to me thing's don't seem that simple.. Though, i don't even know the poor lady's name, still her death made me uneasy. The reason might be that I've played with her kids. (The image of her three year old daughter bidding me goodbye innocently as i left for my college everyday is horrifying me now, she didn't get enough time to know her mother..)

Anyways, her family has left the city, so, coming back to my point, how can someone burn oneself alive, how drastic the situation might have been that forced her into such a decision, is something that eludes me... The other big question is, that how could the landlords, ( who live just below their floor), neither hear the screams of the dying lady, nor smell the burning flesh ( which i feel is a considerably harsh smell).

Her husband is completely unscathed, which means he didn't even try to save his wife.......!!!!

The police, who interrogated no one but believed that the lady died while lighting a 'diya' for the evening prayers??? How come???

Nothing of these seem to fit my stream of logic. Anyways, I'm not SHERLOCK HOLMES, as to investigate into the case but the thing i want to point out is the extremely eccentric behavior of the landlords..

How can someone be so unthinking as to not even save someone's life..?? ( i can not believe that they did not know that someone is burning right above their floor??)

They own a car, but that woman was carried to the hospital in an auto??

This, precisely, is where the thinking of people divide. For them the "Right" was to keep themselves and their family out of police case. (Which in our country is as good as being the criminal) but for me the right would have been to save a 3 year old girl's mother... Their right for me is a terrible "WRONG"......

Anyways the comedy here is that today morning the dead woman's domestic help came up to their place asking for her salary. She was told that her employer is no more, she refused to believe it considering it to be a lame excuse for not paying her. She stole the dead woman's clothes for compensation... FUNNY, isn't it??

Now just lemme know whether this is Right or Wrong???

:)

Signing off..

Sriti!!